Tell her to change everything about herself? Dissecting apart her every bone.
I’m sorry you’re so miserable.
That you hate your job.
Your 2 hour commute.
Your relationship with your parents.
Your fake friends that you don’t actually like.
Your career stalemate.
That you had to leave a mark on my cheek.
To make yourself feel better.
Will be over you.
I was never enough for you or your shitty friends
He probably says she’s a better match for you than I was
Are hotel bars your thing?
How many memories will you recreate to blur over ours?
You were not the person I know. She stifled you, controlled you, made you pretend to be a different person.
I hope you can always be your truest self because that’s extremely important.
I miss your kindness
You ask me why I even love you? I love you because you don’t judge me for being who I am. You don’t ask for more you accept me the way I am. I love it when you tell me you love me. You let me grow and learn at work and in my career. You listen to me and keep me in check. You don’t let my fears get to my head and you calm me down when I’m upset. You never went running when I told you I had depression, you didn’t even blink twice. You were there spotting me the whole way while I picked myself up. How can I not support you now when you are down and need someone to spot you? The only reason why is because I feel I’m in the way of you figuring that out and I’m blocking that happiness. I wish I could support you but feel like I’m hurting you more than helping. I love you because you’re you. I saw a future with you but need to understand myself that you don’t see that. I’ll always love you. I’ll always love your weird quirks and dirty mind. I’ll always want to keep your favorite foods stocked in my fridge and the left side of my bed for you. When you came back from your trip I was excited for you to stay with me for a few days like we talked about while you were gone. I got my spare key ready to give to you in case you wanted to sleep in past me leaving. You never came. I waited for you to stay with me to spend time with you and for you tell me you loved me like you did when you were away but you never did. So I started moving on. I kept waiting and waiting for you. I told my closest friends you wanted to get back with me and wanted to do this again and I was so excited. I kept waiting but it never happened. I wanted you to meet my parents but you didn’t want to in the end. I kept waiting. And waiting. You never came back.
Is the day I broke free. Free from your grasp. You will never have a hold on me again.
My heart aches for yours.
Yours doesn’t for mine.