Supposed to marry you.
I wish we were taking out this mortgage for a place of our own. I wish we still spoke. I wish we still spoke of our plans to move in together. I wish you still loved me. I wish I could still feel your love. I can’t feel it anymore and I’ve never been so cold.
No one ever finds me as disappointing and annoying as you do.
Typically I get along with people and am considered to go with the flow.
You make me feel like quicksand… like everyone should run or I’ll swallow them.
Maybe I should so they’ll stay.
I cried myself to sleep last night beside him because I’m moving on…
The end of a chapter that tore my heart in half and left me out to bleed.
I cried myself to sleep
again last night.
sea of salty tears.
What was it about me that you didn’t think you could ever love as much as I loved you?
I wanted it to be you…
I’m traveling the world and meeting so many people who want to get to know me and I still can’t get my mind off of you.
I can’t decide if your words or your silence hurt me more.
“We can be friends.”
“No I’m not going to go off the grid and disappear.”
“Of course I wouldn’t block you.”
“No a break doesn’t mean I want to be with other people.”
“I still want to be there for each other and in each other’s lives.”
“I love how much you love me. That’s one of my favorite parts about you. How much you love me.”
“I know. It was scary for me too. I also feel like you’re trying to manipulate me into staying.”
“It’s selfish of you.”
“It was the right timing.”
“It means we have an exciting future though.”
“I support you no matter what.”
“It’s your decision.”
“We are so young.”
“Can I hang up now? Just know I’ll be thinking of you all the time.”
Message undelivered. Your call cannot be completed as dialed.
We can be friends.
“Sometimes I know that this is real and that I want to be with you and then sometimes I just don’t know what I want. It’s just that half the time I don’t what I want or if I want to be with you.”
50% odds of someone wanting to be with you are not so good to be perfectly honest. There’s a 50% chance that a stranger will help you if you fall on the street. There is approximately a 50% chance that a coin will land either on a head or tail face. There is a 50% chance that you may or may not get your heart broken again.
50% chance for undivided devotion and limitless love. I give you 50/100 for a grade on our relationship. That’s a C- in some academic cultures, others less forgiving is a fail.
“One of the things I love about you the most is how much you love me. I just don’t know if I’m capable of loving you as much as you love me.” Should I love you less or show you I care about you less? When someone loves you, you don’t make them feel like an anomaly that the world sees differently and is uncertain as how to “deal” with or “handle”.
You know what? Keep my love. I have endless amounts of it to give and you only have a sliver of it. Love to me is contagious; it multiplies and expands exponentially. How beautiful it is that it will never stop growing, that there will be an endless supply of it. The fact that you don’t think you’re capable of loving me as much as I love you is sad. How empty it would feel to notbe able to feel your love multiply.
You say I’m possessive for not wanting you to date other people. Maybe it’s just because I have never been so in love before. You say people are allowed to change their minds. I’m a literal person. If you tell me you want to be with me forever I understand it to mean forever.
for all future time; for always.
“she would love him forever”